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. lost myself.

Sunday, June 11, 2006

a hand to hold and a tight hug. is that too much to ask? even someone who has found me has left. sigh...
.found a piece of myself. @ 3:13 PM



Friday, May 26, 2006

if years after you graduate, and all you can be proud of or still talk about is which school you came from...i don't think there's much to be proud of...
.found a piece of myself. @ 8:59 PM



Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Even in my heart I see
You're not bein' true to me
Deep within my soul I feel
Nothing's like it used to be
Sometimes I wish I could turn back time
Impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could so bad baby
Quit playin' games with my heart
Chorus:
Quit playin' games with my heart
Before you tear us apart
I should've known from the start
Before you got into my heart
I live my life the way
To keep you comin' back to me
Everything I do is for you so
So what is it that you can't see
Sometimes I wish I could
Turn back time, impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could so bad
You better quit playin' games with my heart
Chorus
Quit playin' games
Baby, baby the love that we had was so strong
Don't leave me hangin' here forever
Oh baby, baby this is not a lie, let's stop
This tonight
Baby, quit playin' games
Sometimes I wish I could
Turn back time, impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could so bad, baby
Quit playin' games with my heart
.found a piece of myself. @ 1:49 PM



Tuesday, May 23, 2006

i am afraid of being alone. and i know it. so why do i keep pushing people away? people whom i love, care about and want to get to know better. i am pushing them away before they get even closer to me, so that i won't be sad when they leave. what about people who are already close to you? why are you tryin to make them leave prematurely? i am pushing them away so that i won't be as sad when they leave as i would be if they continue walkin on in my life. so the sooner they leave, the better for me?
this doesn't make sense. if everyone leaves you, you'll be alone? isn't that your greatest fear? everyone leaves. sooner or later.
.found a piece of myself. @ 3:30 PM



sigh...i think i'm boring you to death. i don't know why, but once i lay eyes on that pretty face my mind just goes blank...hope i'll still have a fun summer like i was lookin forward to....
.found a piece of myself. @ 1:21 PM



Monday, May 22, 2006

guess I'm as good at cheerin u up as I tot I can be huh? Oh well... =/
.found a piece of myself. @ 3:00 AM



Saturday, April 29, 2006

i need to grow up i guess...
.found a piece of myself. @ 2:49 AM



Friday, April 28, 2006

i am such a fool. always have been. will i always be? i sure hope not.
.found a piece of myself. @ 10:27 AM



Sunday, April 23, 2006

It Might Be You

Time... I've been passing time watching trains go by
All of my life...
Lying on the sand, watching seabirds fly
Wishing there would be
Someone waiting home for me...

Something's telling me it might be you
It's telling me it might be you...
All of my life...

Looking back as lovers go walking past...
All of my life
Wondering how they met and what makes it last

If I found the place
Would I recognize the face?
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it might be you

So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake
And we've so much love to make

I think we're gonna need some time
Maybe all we need is time...
And it's telling me it might be you
All of my life...

I've been saving love songs and lullabies
And there's so much more
No one's ever heard before...

Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it must be you
And I'm feeling it'll just be you
All of my life...
It's you..
It's you...
I've been waiting for all of my life...

Maybe it's you...
Maybe it's you...
I've been waiting for all of my life...

let's make the summer of '06 one to remember......even if you're not the one for me =)

.found a piece of myself. @ 3:24 AM



Friday, April 21, 2006

not knowing where we are going
not being able to control the handles very well
but laughing, frolicking, being slightly afraid
we continue to move ahead after all
.found a piece of myself. @ 4:15 AM



Tuesday, April 18, 2006

thanks for making my day =)
.found a piece of myself. @ 11:04 PM



Monday, April 17, 2006

"Goodbye My Lover"

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

[x2]
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

[x2]
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

sometime ago, a very close friend of mine sent me this song. i didn't think much about why it was sent to me. i just thought it was a good song to be shared. i heard the song, but never really listened. i guess i heard you speak too, but never really listened. i am really sorry i couldn't be there for you when you needed me to be around. i didn't even know. you always appear so strong, so silent, that i never thought that you will actually need me. i will listen harder from now on. to hear those silent cries of yours. not because i want you to hear mine one day, but simply because...i want you to know i'll be there. always.
.found a piece of myself. @ 10:45 PM



Saturday, April 15, 2006

don't be afraid. focus instead, your energies on not letting it happen. make your plan fool-proof, carry out all the necessary preparations. don't slack...
.found a piece of myself. @ 8:28 PM



Friday, April 14, 2006


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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

work and play. some people work hard and play hard. how do they do that? up till now, it seems to me that achievement and enjoyment are almost mutually exclusive. finding a balancing point between the two seems to diminish the level of both achievement and enjoyment. is that really true? when will i know? hahaa...questions questions...why do i have so many questions and so few answers?
.found a piece of myself. @ 3:39 PM



Monday, April 10, 2006

i want to become powerful......a powerful thinker......how?
.found a piece of myself. @ 10:44 PM



Sunday, April 09, 2006


.found a piece of myself. @ 12:35 AM



Thursday, April 06, 2006

wow...this is surprising...u actually saw through me...
hope the serious me doesn't bore u to death... .
u intrigue me.. ... .
.found a piece of myself. @ 3:48 PM



Tuesday, April 04, 2006

can't wait for the sun, sand, sea and your familiar scent...
.found a piece of myself. @ 10:58 PM



i think i'm going crazy. i dunno wot's wrong with me. somebody help me. argh......feels like a rollercoaster......side effects of my medication? i really don't know. i can't tell. help.....i dun even know why i'm going crazy...
.found a piece of myself. @ 12:04 AM



Monday, April 03, 2006

a friend came over for the weekend, and it was such fun. it's really the company that counts, not what you are doing. i should remember that in my quest for financial stability, i mustn't forget why i want all that money. hopefully, one day i'll be free...
i still want to play!!!
.found a piece of myself. @ 10:17 PM




.found a piece of myself. @ 3:33 AM



Tuesday, March 28, 2006


.found a piece of myself. @ 8:48 PM



Sunday, March 26, 2006

Glad to have taken a risk afterall =)
.found a piece of myself. @ 4:08 AM

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wHaT's in a NamE?

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